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January 13th, 2005
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Brief update on the state of Phil
I remain unemployed.  This is little surprise.  The dog is needing lots of expensive treatment, but holding together just well enough that it seems like the treatment is justified.

I went into this jobless time with good intentions of keeping myself busy and directing my efforts to getting some useful things done, but unfortunately I have fallen into a deep pit of apathy and unmotivation.  I don't feel unhappy. Some of the time I feel somewhat depressed, but most of the time I feel pretty good; I just can't get myself together to actually do anything except read.

I'm not even keeping up with LJ; I'm way behind on reading other people's journals and several entries that I mean to write in my own.  I have bunches of ideas for doing stuff with my photography, yet I haven't even downloaded the photos I took on the GaFilk trip from the camera.

I'm not going to belabor this with any more details; what I've said sums up my situation pretty well.  If anyone would care to ship me a nice large load of give a damn, it would be appreciated.


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Date:January 13th, 2005 09:47 pm (UTC)

Start dreaming about what you would like to do, if all barriers were removed.
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Date:January 14th, 2005 12:11 am (UTC)
It's hard to get motivated when you're the one who not only has to be motivated but do all the motivating! I have absolutely no idea how you can fix this, but am sending 'zen hugs' across the miles.

I am, however, glad to hear that the dog is holding her own.
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Date:January 14th, 2005 02:27 am (UTC)

Re: Brief update on the state of Phil

that actually sounds to me pretty typical of low grade depression (dysthymia) -- for me it's always been marked by not having enough oomph to do all the things i could be doing, and feeling generally "not unhappy" with not doing anything much. yup, reading is pretty much all i get done unless i push myself (or take meds).

insidious, it is.
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Date:January 14th, 2005 06:01 am (UTC)
Reading qualifies as doing something, even if it doesn't seem like it to those of us who do it all the time.

I can't ship any give-a-damn, but I'll offer hugs.
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Date:January 14th, 2005 01:50 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear you're down. :-(

Sending virtual hugs and Chocolate Silk Pie....

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Date:January 21st, 2005 04:30 pm (UTC)
Here: have a virtual Round Tuit and a jar of Get-Up-and-Go. I spent a lot of time schlumping around in that state between temp assignments over the last few years. It does eventually wear off. Good luck in the job hunt, and I'm glad to hear Lori is hanging in there.
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